Thursday, August 31, 2006

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theres just this emptiness inside of me .

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Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because you think tat he/she doesn't miss you? Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time,a sweet feeling. You will be sitting around wondering if you meant anything to him/her. Thinking if he/she ever cares about you. Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her. Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise you by appearing downstairs. Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her/him missing the final episode of your favourite show. Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time you went out together.Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future. Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online. When you realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay. Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes you to loneliness. It teaches you how to cope with being lonely and let you know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness. Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. You know that you really care and you indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her. But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. You feel as if u are being left alone. So if you miss someone, tell him/her and let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss you. Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid. If you are the one being missed and you know it, let the other party know. if you miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait. ***

hahas saw this and thought i'd put it here (:
iluuuu .

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it's the last day of common tests ! XD
finally .

but EOY is coming soon too . =X

watched the break up today .
was kinda nice (:
riffin and weichong are HEARTLESS people !
LOL and they even laughed =X

celebrated teachers' day in class .
and mr IMRAN forced me to eat that cake .
and it was like ONE WHOLE BIG CHUNK =X lol .
he said i was too skinny .
why do i keep getting suaned by teachers ?
mr sim said that i was disappearing day by day yesterday =X
lol . but whatever . (:
MISS TAN came back today !
missed her and her lessons (:

lovewreckedLOVEWRECKEDlovewrecked !
i wanna watch (:

those 3 words , i mean it .

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

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alright i shall blog since i'm so bored .

here are the 15 things i don't like (:

i don't like ..
1. people to wack me when i'm sleeping so that i'll wake up.
2. being forced to eat stuff i don't like (:
3. being pangseh-ed
4. people asking me to help them carry their stuff ( i don't know why i don't like it . i just dont )
5. people who disturb my beauty sleep
6. being ignored ( lol )
7. noisy places
8. going out all the time
9. getting suaned ( occasionally, i don't mind )
10. those arrogant people who think they're BIG (:
11. not being able to sleep when i want to
12. when people turn on the lights when i'm sleeping
13. people stepping on my mattress when i'm sleeping ! XD
14. annoying people who annoys me ( ha.ha.)
15. people WACKING my hair . ( that i ABSOLUTELY DO NOT LIKE . IT'S IRRITATING )

told you i was bored . =X

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shall post after CTs .
to lazy to post . o.O
all the best everyone (:

Friday, August 25, 2006

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jiu shi ni . (:

Thursday, August 24, 2006

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the hurt's so deep i don't know what to do .

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i'llbeFINE=DD .
THANKYOUs EVERYONE (:

and ADRIANO really made my day yesterday .
WAHAHAH .

i WANTTT
that PAN WEI BO CD !
ahhhh . i can't get it until next month when i'll have enough money to buy =(
i have to wait so longggg .
ANTICIPATION (:

Monday, August 21, 2006

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here are some photos uploaded from my phone . XD
took them longlong ago (:


YAKAI =DD



iloveTRACY:DD



nic and jerome XD .



junyi !



jerome .. what are you doing ?!



coolkukus (:



ahha . carmens .



last but not least .
bryan in a sexy pose . lol .

Sunday, August 20, 2006

ahh .

gone down the drain ! =x

theres school tomorrow .
and theres still so many things i haven't do .

i'm so dead .

Saturday, August 19, 2006

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oh yays . went out with my family after tuition today .
went to the hawker centre near junyuan to eat (:
den after that went to tm .
saw bren , pei , weiting and jane . hurhurs .

bought 2 tops ! and i'm so happy . XD .
heex .

shall end here i suppose . too lazy to type (:

imu ~

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alright . i'm posting for what happened yesterday and today .

FRIDAY

didn't go and find bernard because i was too lazy to . haha (:
had sundar's lesson at first . and all the electricty formulas are driving me CRAZY .
then had maths . double period . ahhh . those right angled triangles !
they're getting more and more difficult . =(
recess was .. uhm . normal .

then had english ! HEEX .
slacked with sengcheong , joel and bren .
was like talking crap all the while and mrMAH scolded joel and sengcheong
like dunno how many times . LOL (:

did geog test after that .
then mdmkoh showed us the excelfest video .
haha . it was like . so funny =DD .

choir was alright . just that i was tired . =X
haha (:
yep . thats really all .

TODAY

woke up around ten plus .
and i'm still grouchy and tired .
hahahs (:
i want to sleep somemore ~ =(

Friday, August 18, 2006

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leave me alone !
go awayyyy , seriously .
i'm irritated enough already alright !?
can't you tell ?
G-O A-W-A-Y .
do i have to spell it out ??

=x

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they say i'm being too nice, am i ?
perhaps .
cos i've really realised that i've never done so much before .

and now i know where the constant ' i'm so pissed mood ' from arlene comes from .
even though it may not be because of what i think .
but it might be along the same line ?
its the small little things that makes people pissed i guess .
cos thats what happens ?

ohhhhwells .
peopleAREdumb . (:

Thursday, August 17, 2006

=D

staying happy is most important .
really .

just another post

alright . it's anotherrrr post .
how many did i post today ?
o.O

this is going to be a long one .
so everything will be detailedddddd . XD
i'm not going to make this a short one just because i'm SHORT . =x
heex .
nevermind . i'm crap . (:

woke up around 6.20 ?
lol . was supposed to wake up at six but always end up waking up late .
brushed my teeth, changed and everything .
yup . went to school after that .

had to go to the parade ground today
which i so do not like cos i don't like to walk through the council . (:
hahaa ~
but i don't have to anymore .
cos i have to see mrbernard every morning JUST to check my stupid attire .
and so far, it has been ' good, okay you may go '
like .. !?!?

i have to like wait for him for so long just to let him seesee my attire .
o.O but ohwells .

had P.E for the first two periods .
did the aces day thingy and the guys went to play soccer .
there were only 5 girls today .
so we ended up slacking and playing around with the hula hoops .
HAHAHA =)

saw estee too . =P
lols .

then had art .
drew the objects thingy and everything was like so funny . (:
heex .

recess was erm , recess-y ?
yar .

after that was chinese and mdm hsu is still not back !
wonder where she went .
i want her backkk .
okae . maybe not .
but she's better than the mr -idunnowhat-
lol .

project work was slack as usual .
tcher don't even care what we do . XD

had CIP after school .
wahhahas . so FUN . (:
drew pants and shirts on the yellow card and cut them out .
hahah ! we're doing the yellow ribbon project ! (:

still have lots to do .

after cip . went with fin to 1e .
called estee and they told us they were coming back .
stayed for awhile then went home .
hahas .

right . is this post long enough ? (:

newsong

just changed the song .
and i've realised .

17august06

i'm obsessed .
i'm addicted .
and i'm suffering from the cold turkey treatment !
=x

lol .

=(

想 !

ahhh .

2days =( .
ahhhhhh =x .
imuimuimuimu badlyyyyyyyyyyyy .
i'm in the comp lab now . haha =x.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

oh

gosh .
whats happening to me .
getting pissed so easily and pissing ppl off arnd me .
sorry yvonne .
for todae .
but i was seriously pissed .
and it isn't a small matter alright ?
i'm sick and tireddddd of it all .

Saturday, August 12, 2006

ahh .

i'm perfectly alright now thankyous :DDDD .

i'm not fine .

i feel so empty .
so many things i don't know .
i mean like .
i DIDNT KNOW anything !
i guess it's FINE !?
WTH . =x

leave me alone .
and DON'T ASK ME WHY !
CAUSE I'M NOT OKAY .
I'M JUST NOT .
DON'T ASK ME WHY OR I'LL GET ANGRY .
SERIOUSLY .
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
I'M TIREDD . TIREDD OF ALL THIS .
TIRED OF ALL THIS CRAP THATS MAKING ME UPSET
EVERYTIME .
LET ME SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMM .
OUTTTTTT LOUDDD .
PERHAPS I'LL FEEL BETTER .
oh wdhs .

OH WAIT . IS ALL THIS NORMAL !?
FINE . WHATEVER . BYE .

NO . I DON'T WANT TO GO YET !
I'M STILL UPSET .
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHS .
WDH .
ARGHHHHHHS .
now i don't understand .
NO SERIOUSLY .
I DON'T UNDERSTAND !!!!!!

MY BLOG'S PRACTICALLY SCREAMING NOW .
HAHA (:

DON'T ASK ME IF I'M OKAY .
DON'T ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED .
DON'T ASK ME IF EVERYTHING'S FINE .
DON'T ASK ME ANYTHING .
AND I MEAN IT .
OR I SHAN'T TALK TO YOU ANYMORE .
ANY OF YOUUUUU .
ONLY ONE PERSON KNOWS . WAHHAA =X

I'LL SAY WHEN I'M READY .
ARGH !
perhaps right now . all i need is , erm ..
sleep ?
lol i'm tired .

frustrations .

Thursday, August 10, 2006

thats all .

just three words . (:

=x

i feel small .
i feel retardedd .
seriously . o.O

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

kuku-ness

i look kuku .
i look kuku .
i don't look okae .
i look kuku .
seriously .
but my mum said there isn't any difference .
there IS !
it's so different .
i look hair-less .
and it would take suchhhhhhh a longggggggggg time to grow back .
i look kuku .
i look superduper kuku .
really .
i cant get over it (:

i still think i look kuku .
i know i've always looked kuku .
fine . i look kuku-er than ever .
ARGHS .
my hairrrrrrrr . =x
my hairrrrrrrr !!
hahaz =X

ahh my hair !

okae . finally draggggged myself to the salon
and cut-ed my hair .
my fringe, my fringe !
i look damn kukuu nowwww with such short fringe .
i'm going to get laughed at on friday . hahaa .
i look retarded-er than ever .
HAIIIIIS ~ !

=x lol .

ohYAYS.

newSKIN again .
hahas . i'm too bored at home, thats why .
but i'm too lazy to go and cut my hair . :DD .
password's gone too (:

=x

Zzz .

i'm boredd at home .
i want to go outttttt . =(

talk to me, someone ! (:

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

=x

i love YVONNE and TRACYY :DDD .

ahs .

i'm ADDICTED !
LEAVE ME ALONE by the veronicas is just so nice .
ahhhhh !
go to arlene's blog to hear it . (:
and JUST THE GIRL is nice too !!
LOL .
i'm slow lahs . XD

JEALOUSY .
i don't like this feeling .
=x
ohwells . (:

i've never felt like this before .
=x
i'll never let go (:

shucckkks.

sunburnt . =x
Zzz . on my KNEES only .
it's pppppain ~ LOL .
now my knees are like CHAO TAAA .
haha !

Monday, August 07, 2006

hmms .

i love TRACY! :DDD .
myGIRL (:

she's always there when i need her .
cheer up girl, don't be sad anymore .
i know i can't do anything but then ,
being happy is easier , isn't it ? :DD

it takes less muscles to smile GIRL (:

,

hohos .
those days (:
those memories .
if we can go back in time =)

ican'thelpbutlaugh ~

,

hohos .
those days (:
those memories .
if we can go back in time =)

ican'thelpbutlaugh ~

Zzz .

just not my day (:

Sunday, August 06, 2006

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moodswings .
they're scary . =x

i don't know why .
i don't understand why .
i don't .
i just don't .

..

imissyou . =(

"I'd Do Anything"

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I knowI won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I knowI won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
Nanana (....)
And I'd do anything for you
Nanana (....)

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I knowI won't forget you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cuz I know I won't forget you

=X

perhaps i didn't know what to expect but still ..
i know things won't always turn out the way i want them to but ..
hais ..

i don't know whats wrong but
everything's changing .

nothing's the same anymore .
and maybe i already knew that things would be like that in the end .

Friday, August 04, 2006

lost without you (:

LOST WITHOUT YOU (:

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'mlost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

How my ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my beds so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'mlost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face
Oh

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How my going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'mlost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

ahh !! it's 12.22 now .
and i don't know whether to go for choir or nots .
i got my voice back anyway and
THANKFULLY (:
i don't sound like a guy anymore .
-.O

should i go , should i go ?
smsed my mum to ask her if i should go .
asked arlene too . but they're having assembly nows
so i don't think she can reply .

i don't know if i should go nots .
dowan to stay at home .
miss the peepos so much . =x
but even if i go .
i can't sing .
=x

but it's better than staying at home with nothing to do lah .
=(

someone REPLY ME quick .
i got to make up my mindddddd .
ARGHHS .
okay .. i think i shall sms my dad .
hmms ?

hang on .

okay done .
lets wait for SOMEBODYYYY to reply me .
ANYBODY .
just reply .
quick !

is assembly over yet ?
i should call arlene .

ARGHHS .

hurry up . my phone's not ringing !
oh , the house phone is .

wait .

oh WDHS . my dad say i must stay at home to RESTTTTTTTTT .
wdhs . i'm so BORED can . =(

HMMPFFS .
I WANT TO GOOOOO .
and get my homework toos .
whathefish .
ohGOOD now i have to stay at home and ROT .

imissyou .

aw

it's the 3rd day i'm staying at home .
how boring .
=x

i seriously can't talk today .
no sound comes out . ( okay, theres sound but i sound horrible )
and i'm coughing like mad .
can't stop . =(

yup so i'm not going for choir today either .
3 days of no school !
goodness . i don't want to go baq .
imagine that pile of HOMEWORK waiting for me . O.O'

and theres still geog and science test too .
ohmytians =x .
howhows !?

quickkkk . let me get baq my voice .
not talking is a TORTURE (: wahahaas . XD
it's as though someone took away my prized possession .
lol whatever . -.-"

piggy.
come baq soon, will you ?
promise me not to leave me ever again ?
i love you .

those 3 words, i promise you .

Thursday, August 03, 2006

blahs .

crappppp .
i'm so bloody sick .
and my throat hurts like crap .
serious crap .

i can't talk .
hurts too much . =(
and i don't think i'll be going to choir tmr .

SIGHS .
feel so cold even if the fan isn't switched on .
getting a fever soon .

tmr ~
hope things won't get screwed up.

-.-

=x

i'm so bloody sick .
seriously .

woke up in the morning and didn't felt like going to school again .
so i didn't .
slept all the way until 10 .
then went to see the DOC .
hate seeing docs =/
dunno why .

but got an mc for just one day . =x
hahaaa. cos i didn't want to see the doctor yesterday .
yup . ohwells .

and i can't TALK . cos whenever i do so my throat will hurt like dunno what .
=x
so don't call me guys .
cos even if you do .. all i can say is .. 'hmmmmm'
yup =( .

2moredays .
comebaqquickly. =(

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

shucks.

i'm so sick . =(

=)

had sectionals first for choir yesterday .
sat behind with leon and other people .
many people didn't sing . lol .
and LEON kept saying he was TALLER than me .
YES, leon. i KNOW .
and he even wrote ' SEC2KANGQI is shorter than SEC1LEON'
on my siyahamba scores .

he wanted to EMPHASIZE on the fact that i was SEC2 and he, a SEC1 .
o.O so i was like . FINE . =)

went to AVT at 5 .
voted for the new comm and stuff .
and then they went to their positions .
sat at the baq in between tracy and leon .

then they started singing jingle bells ( the choir, i mean. not us )
and leon sang along, but he sang sop .
and there was like this high note .
haaaa . and he was like ' LAAAAAA!!'
and we all turned to look at him . hahaaa .

so i tried it too .
and i didn't realise i was singing so loudly until tracy glared at me .
LOL . =x
me : LAAAAA !!
trace : o.O !
me : what ?! i sang too loudly ?
trace : erm .. YAHH !
me : OH . o.O oops .
leon&trace : HAHAHAHAHHA .

and they started laughing like mad .
o.O'

then after that they sang the lux thingy .
and halfway during the song . leon asked me to give him my hand cos he wanted to do something .
so i gave him . and i was afraid he would smash it .
haha . he asked me to put my hand on the table .
then he started POUNDING my hand with his fist .
but before he could even REACH my hand .
i siam-ed . LOL .
and i was laughing like mad .

me : hahaaaa . no i'm not going to give you my hand cos you're going to hit it . hahaaahaha
leon : no ! i'm not going to . i just want to do something .
me : hahahhaha don't lie .
leon : ( by that time, he was laughing like mad, too ) haha .. no i promise i won't .
me : don't lie lar leon .. hahahaha
leon : hahaha.. really ! i'm not LYING .
me : hahaha. dowan ! later my hand pain .
leon : it won't hurttttt .. hahaha

and during that time, mr toh was telling us the word pronouciation for the lux thingy song . and we were laughing like mad .
so ..

mrtoh : LEON ! are you LISTENING ?!?!

hahaaa . by that time both of us were shocked already . so we diam-ed .
HAHAS .

but in the end, gave leon my hand . and he really POUNDED on it .
den he grabbed my wrist and asked me to open and close my hand till theres no blood circulation .
but it was so painful so i kept laughing and asking him to let go .
he was like .. NO .. then he asked me which finger was the most ticklish when he touched it .
i was like .. NO ~ LET GO .. HAHAHA .. PAIN .. I GOT NO BLOOD ! LET GO !!
haha .. and he was like laughing like mad again .
and then he let go .

but he did a second time . was about a rose thingy . red or white . or whatever .

and i did it to tracy . LOL . but my hand wasn't strong enough to stop her blood circulation .
so i had to use BOTH of my hands -.- haha .

yup . after that went home and on the bus .. jingyong kept talking crap . and yvonne got pissed off by me .
HAHAs .. but was alright in the end .
LOL .

got off the bus and walked home .
felt so empty walking alone .
and yes . i miss you .
3 more days . =(

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